I only noticed it just now because you wrote a note on MSN so I went to your journal as quickly as my computer would allow. Let me try to explain because I don't know it any better whether you believe it or not. I lied yes, no getting around that, but as to why I have no idea. I know I should have stopped a shit load sooner and came out with the truth but I feared rejection. Stupid considering I did more damage then prevent it. I am a little confused at what you mean in your journal. are 1 and 2 meant for me? If so please explain the last part for part 2. As to why I'm avoiding the group is because I am trying to sort through if I can hold my fat ass tongue or not. I don't mean to lie but I did and I deeply regret it and I don't want it to happen just as much as anyone else who knows what's going on. I have no idea what this sounds to you but please understand I do want to be part of the group again and if you feel it in you to help me do that I would deeply appreciate it. I do appreciate what you do for me and even though I am blind to it I appreciate that you have pointed it out. Thank you and I do hope this has cleared at least a little bit of misunderstanding.


This person knows who they are so I'm not going to name any names.